ING

wanting my body to cooperate

needing to conquer this challenge

seeing the hurdles that lie ahead

hoping for the strength to jump

longing for simpler, healthier times

striving to live each day fully

envying those with perfect lungs

waging a war for us all

aching when they suffer

wishing it was me instead

balancing the light and dark times

basking in the warmth of the sunshine

crying alone when beat down

fighting with every ounce of my being

appreciating the family I was given

surrounding myself with love

Things I need

food to nurish my body

water to quench my thirst

oxygen to fill my lungs

exercise to keep me active

love to fuel my being

creativity to feed my mind

laughter to energize my life

challenges to balance things

family to strengthen my spirit

confrontation to remind me of diveristy

sunshine to keep me sane

chores to feel productive

medications to supplement my health

date nights to stay connected to my soul mate

humor to distract me from reality

hugs from my boys to warm my heart

nature to make me aware of beauty all around us

connections to make me feel alive

and comfort even when I don't ask for it.

3 Things...

3 THINGS…

(the thoughts of a CF patient by Lindsay Conde)

Do you ever feel like a sheet of ice floating around in the arctic? Cracks develop, sections begin to melt, pieces start to drift away from the base…..all the while, you feel helpless to stop the chunks from being washed away. Well, maybe an ice sheet isn’t the best analogy for me, I don’t think of myself as cold or frigid. But the comparison works on a certain level. Sometimes, because of stress or challenges or just life, you begin to slowly lose pieces of yourself. These parts are vital to the survival of the ice sheet or person as a whole. A big, strong slab of ice will fare much better in the dangerous waters of the arctic than some tiny, thin slice of ice. So how can we stop this? How can we keep ourselves in one piece through the calm seas AND tidal waves of life? Because, make no mistake, they are both out there waiting for us…


For me, the answer lies in what holds me together and keeps me going. What is the “crazy glue” in my life that allows me to keep on, keeping on?


In three words………FAMILY, LOVE, and LAUGHTER!


~ My FAMILY is everything to me. I have an amazing husband and two beautiful little boys. I am thankful every single day that I have these three men in my life. But my deep family connection began long before I ever met my husband. I grew up in a beautifully large and unique family. I have two parents that have been married for 37 years (to each other, lol), created a strong family foundation with their blood, sweat, and eternal love, and would do anything for each other and their children. These parents of ours CHOSE to have a big family, resulting in 13 pregnancies. Years later, there are 10 of us “crazy” kids/adults that represent our clan. The oldest is 36 and the youngest is now 14. Out of 10 children, 3 of us spend each and every day fighting Cystic Fibrosis. The disease does not afflict every member of our family, but it does affect us all. We may be older, have separate and busy lives, and sometimes even conflicts with each other….but one thing has always remained the same…our love and devotion to our family. We have made a point, as a family, to celebrate life’s moments (big and small) and supporting each other through life’s disappointments and challenges. Individuals throughout my life, have teased me about my big family or inquired as to whether or not I would have such a large family myself. The jokes never really upset me much, because though our family is big in number (and growing constantly) it is also full of soul and so much heart. Each member of this circle brings along with it such unique personality and a different human dynamic. And although we may not always see eye-to-eye, the circle would be far from complete without each individual’s contribution.


My husband, Alex, and I have begun and will continue to focus on the same priorities for our own little family. Yes it is true that money is what motivates our society, jobs are a necessity, and bills have to be paid. But life should not revolve around such things, if so, it is a life wasted. We want to instill in our boys the strong family ties, devotion, and unconditional love that we both believe is so essential to a successful and happy life. It is true that “Home is where the heart is.” So I keep my family forever in my heart, because they are where my home is!


　


~This brings me to LOVE and LAUGHTER!! I learned at a very young age that laughter heals, memories last forever, and love is more powerful than hate. Love makes the world go round. The world can move for love and kneels before it. Don’t get me wrong, hate is also a very powerful thing. But love sets you free and opens new dimensions within yourself, while hate closes you off and hardens you. Now, that’s not to say that my life and it’s many challenges have been all rainbows and skipping through meadows. I have had my angry or bad days. Those days, I spent wondering “why me?” or focusing on what hurdle I would have to try to leap over next. Some of them have even revolved around crying and thoughts of what my children will do without their mother. It’s funny, when you love someone so much, you almost become conceited and selfish about that love. You feel like that no one can love them, look after them, and take care of them like you can. You want them to truly know you, love you, and remember you forever. But the truth is (for me), my time is better spent living each day one at a time, than thinking ahead to the heartache I may leave behind. I can better serve my husband, my boys, myself, and the rest of my family by making memories, laughing, crying, dancing, snuggling, enjoying the little things, and most of all….living. Because, in the end, no matter how much time we have together, the memories are what we are left with…so we have to make them unforgettable! I have made the choice to live, laugh, and love with my whole heart. And if I make that happen, then I will have no regrets in my life.


Time does heal all wounds, but laughter can sometimes be the best medicine. A good laugh with friends or family or even at yourself can unburden your mind and give you back a piece of your happiness. Someone once said, that if they didn’t laugh, they would cry all the time. So it may seem silly, but I choose to lighten the mood as often as possible, especially in challenging times…with a funny joke, stupid impression, or even just a silly face that makes my boys giggle. We may not have control over the hand we are dealt in life, but we “for damn sure” have control over how we choose to play it! So, while we are forced to make car payments, pay rent, and buy groceries………I’m going to play my cards as follows….


*Drive that car to take amazing trips with my boys, like to the Chattanooga Aquarium this weekend.


*Decorate our house like crazy with lights and trees and tinsel, to make the holidays exciting and special for my family.


*And use those groceries to create delicious (and mostly healthy) meals that will bring us to the dinner table together and nourish our bodies and souls!

SOME...

At this moment, there are 6,767,797,804 people living on this earth.

Some of them are running scared
and some are coming home
some tell lies just to get through the day
and some are just now facing the truth
some are bad people struggling with good
and some are good people struggling with bad
some are beginning to fall asleep
and others are finally waking up
some are closing their hearts to love
and some are just now opening up
some have years of experiences to have and mistakes to make
and others desperately plea for more time
some have built a legacy of money and success
while some have placed their faith and future in family
some live their life guarded and afraid
and some live every day like it could be their last
some are independent and free
and others need a shoulder to lean on
we are so different, yet share so much....
we all need air to breathe and food to nurish
we need fire to warm our bodies
and love to warm our souls
we need compassion from our fellow man
and understanding from our loved ones
we need room to make mistakes
and forgiveness when we are wrong
we need open arms when we are scared
and a willing ear when we need help.
There are 6 billion, 767 million, 797 thousand, 804 souls on this earth today.


And all you need is 1 to believe in you!